When I look back on the last 10 years I lived, I think of many things like what I achieved, what I lost, and given a chance, what I could have changed. And, believe me when I think what I possibly could have changed – I find nothing to be changed at all. All I find is the best with me and nothing I could have possibly changed. I can still feel my adolescence in certain aspects of life, and I feel the same if a situation arises today. So, didn’t I change at all for so many years? Hard to believe, but it seems so. It is good exercise and fun when you think back like you have some powers to change things and visualize the consequences.
I found that whatever I did in the last 10 years, it was possibly the best I could have done. But, if I go 10 more years back, which is 20 years from now, it seems like if I would have learned a few things and my natural reflections were built in a certain manner, then the entire world for me and my dear ones could have been changed dramatically. I feel I could have changed the following:
- Concentrate on my extracurricular and to pursue reading, writing, and cricket
- To talk less and think more.
- To practice more self-confidence.
- To fight with my ego and win every day.
- To be more social and to spend more time with my family.
- To praise God every day for everything he gave and everything he did not.
Many things did not happen to me, probably because I could not respond the way I should have to mold the situation. My natural responses were programmed in my childhood, the way I saw the world around me starting my birth. When I was at the age of 10 or 12, everything was already programmed, and I need to react as per the execution of my mental program. This mental program, which is developed in our first 10 or 12 years, continues for a lifetime and makes us decide everything we choose, everything we feel about people/situation, and everything we think while sleeping.
I thought this mental program could not be changed afterward, and we are just meant to live the life programmed in our early childhood until I met someone. We did not talk initially, and I could see her from a distance, but her thoughts only pushed me to change some things in my life. And, I don’t know when I started acting towards a change. I changed my habits, my world of thoughts where I think I am safe always. Soon, I realized that she has someone else in her mind. After knowing that I can’t get her in my life to pursue a sudden inspiration, I again came back to my usual life.
Now, when I think back, I see the major changes I made and the thrills of feeling at that point in my life. I realize that it is not the love of someone else that inspires, but self-love only changes our lives. When we start loving someone, love actually reflects on us. We start loving ourselves as well. We tend to improve ourselves so that we can love more and get more love. This world has many examples where the love for someone had made histories of a lifetime. But this is not the only part; the sad part is when someone does not accept our love – we feel worthless, and we question our own selves. We try to find out what lacks in us and sometimes destroys our own self-esteem, which leads to many undesirable consequences. I don’t think my friends, reading these lines, won’t deny this fact.
The truth is, no one ever failed in love till today; if someone ever failed, then it is to understand what love is. Love is to give, and if you could give something to someone, you won and succeeded in understanding the meaning of love. If I could smile at someone and support whenever needed, then I really loved and understood the meaning of love as well in this lifetime.
Well, love is a nice thing in life. Our point was how we could change our childhood’s mental program, which unconsciously makes us do everything in life. Can we really change our own destiny? The answer is ‘Yes’ and how is ‘Simple.’ If love triggers us to feel good about ourselves and inspires us to make changes, which we all realized sometime in our lives, then let’s love more. Each day and every day, let’s share the love. Let’s love God, who gave us a single chance to live on this earth, let’s love our parents who gave birth to us, let’s love our friends who always stand by our side, and let’s love everyone we meet, talk to and see. Love is not about expecting anything in return but to prove that we have a lot to give. Once we start loving and giving, our lives will change. If we can give the gift of our soothing voice, the hand of support, and best wishes of the heart alone, we are giving the best treasures we have, which have no price tag.
If I could have changed something, then I would have loved everyone more and more.
